Its just my small little corner..

10 days have passed unrealisingly in Dungun..exam season is just around the corner..so fast I’ve got to face the stressful exam..so fast I have got to go back to KL.. I am quite excited because I miss my KL friends and yet I quite miss the life in Dungun where it has a beautiful beach, my favourite keropok lekor with fruit juice, tomyam soup, and the precious moment with my family members(aunts,uncles, cousins, siblings and parents). Hmm wondering how good if everything can be PERFECT?

Well, What did I do in the holidays?
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Ecclesiastes 8:4 Where the word of a king is, there is power.

In biblical times, a king’s word carried tremendous power. What he decreed would come to pass. If he said, “Raise taxes,” the taxes were raised.

Do you know that we are kings? The Bible tells us that Jesus has washed us from our sins with His blood and made us kings. (Revelation 1:5–6) And as kings in Christ, our words carry power too.

When we place our hands on a sick person and say, “Be healed,” the person is healed! When we lay hands on our children and say, “Be blessed,” our children are blessed! For there is power in our words — the words of kings! 

When I was a young Christian in my teens, I wanted to practise what I had learnt about the power of my words. There was this plant near my home and whenever I passed by it, I would say to it, “Be cursed in Jesus’ name!”

Many days passed. And I will never forget the day when I noticed that the leaves of the plant had turned brown! You may want to try this at home with your potted plants. But bless them instead!

Since our words carry power, can you imagine the harm we do when we say to our loved ones things like “You are always so careless”, “You are good for nothing” or “You are so stupid”? We are cursing them!

The devil is happy when you use the power of your words against your loved ones or even yourself. He wants to see you defeated. So instead of saying, “I am always short of money,” say, “The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.” (Psalm 23:1) And stop saying, “I am so useless. I don’t think I can do it.” Instead, start saying, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” (Philippians 4:13)

Beloved, remember that as a king, what you say will come to pass because where the word of a king is, there is power. So learn to say what God says about you and see His promises come to pass in your life!

By Pastor Joseph Prince.

Steadfast In The Faith

1 Peter 5:8–9 Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. Resist him, steadfast in the faith…

When I was a teenager, I was taught that if I wanted to resist the devil, I must rebuke him. So whenever an evil thought came to my mind or I was tempted, I found myself saying, “I resist you, devil, in Jesus’ name! I bind you, devil! Go away from me, devil! I rebuke you in Jesus’ name!”

This went on until God showed me one day that though I had “resisted” the devil, I had spent more time talking to him than to God! I was more conscious of the devil than of God throughout the day. I checked the Word of God and realised that we resist the devil not by focusing on resisting him, but by being established in the faith that we are made right with God through Jesus’ blood, and that we are the righteousness of God in Christ. (2 Corinthians 5:21)

Yes, the devil will continue to remind you of your mistakes, failures and sins. And he will tell you that because of these things, you cannot receive your healing, that something will happen to your family and that you will have to pay for your mistakes. He will accuse you, condemn you and try to persuade your heart to believe that he can do bad things to you.

But the truth is that the devil cannot enforce anything in your life if he cannot persuade your heart. And your heart cannot be persuaded if it is “steadfast in the faith” — established in righteousness. God says that once you are established in righteousness, “you shall be far from oppression, for you shall not fear; and from terror, for it shall not come near you”. (Isaiah 54:14)

So now that my heart is established in righteousness, I can tell the devil, “Yes, I have all these problems in my life but I’m not guilty in God’s eyes. I’m justified in God’s eyes by faith because of what Christ has done. I’m righteous by Jesus’ blood!” My friend, that’s how you resist the devil and become undevourable!

The message above was taken from the daily devotional from New Creation Church, written by Pastor Joseph Prince. Thanks to Jonathan for the sharing. I am so blessed by Pastor Joseph Prince’s messages recently. May the blessings continue to spread to the world J

I just got everything settled down.. just sent my mum and bro to the bus station and watched them til they got their seats in the bus then only I and my father leaved the bus station.

"haih".. actually, I thought today after closing shop, it wil be a ‘family’ time and the all of us can just sit in the living hall and watch ‘Just Follow Law’ and have some laughs together..but this afternoon mum received calls from her sister asking her to go back home( IPOH ) to see her mother which is my grandmum.. she has been diagnosed with kidney cancer and is too old to do an operation..there might be a possibility that she will never wake up after the operation. So, mum and her sisters are taking another option from the doctor which I am not so clear about it. Mum said she wants to see her mother while she still have the chance. Hmm I cant go with them coz i need to stay here in order to look after the shop.

Tonight is a bored night! Without my lil bro .. and mum at home!

本小姐刚和阿赖，Calvin, Kevin, Jeremiah, Kenny Wong, Dawson吃完早餐。现在好无聊，laptop又在bukit jalil, 不能追看我的连续剧所以只好blogging 吧！昨天不知干嘛， 睡着了又醒，重重复复七八次，平均一小时醒一次。今早起身眼睛肿肿的。 @_@ 奇怪咯？我又没烦恼，什么都没，就只有颗小小想睡觉的心..奇怪..唉，其实近期都好难入睡，就是会一直翻来翻去..可是昨天比较惨啦，还会半夜三更一直被惊醒。哎！好眼睡！

昨天第一天学打拳！我好喜欢，好好玩！虽然好玩可是辛苦，辛苦到来又值得！可能对我来讲辛苦吧！从小我就没什么跑步，因为医生说我不能有激烈的运动，所以啊，如果是比赛跑，我一定是在十名以内(从后面算起)。昨天我好像是跑了五圈还是七圈，真的好喘好喘，哈，我一直告诉自己千万不能让别人看见我喘，所以啊，吸气呼气都比别人快(要赶快平复心跳)，哈！

其实今天还有一堂打拳课. 我想去可是……没带多余的衣服来wangsa maju..难道要从wangsa maju 回BUKIT JALIL 然后又从 bukit jalil去 MIDVALLEY 啊？Hmm..

昨天阿赖好搞笑，有 speed training, 要 punch 20次，哪组最后要 PUSH UP 十次！那个小姐！哈！跟我乱乱 punch，我都顶不顺了，她一边 punch， 我就一边笑。哈哈！(其实她是被我拉去上打拳课…的)！哈哈！ 差不多要 dismiss 的时候，全部人都要做PUSH UP 20次，还有PUSH UP，身体不能下，手要挺着20秒(真的是“拿我的命”)，阿赖根本就整个人趴在地上了，身体趴在地上，两只脚和手又挺起(她在做push down吧)，哈哈！

我是全课里最瘦的吧…哈，我会加把劲，把身体练壮去！当我在打拳时，看到教练微笑，该是笑我吧！因为我可爱咯！！哈！(其实我也觉得好笑咧，人瘦瘦，斯斯文文，无端端打拳，动作又搞笑，难怪教练也笑，教练笑，我又想笑！哈！)阿赖更搞笑，我在punch的时候，她就：“ canny har, 这拳Andrew 的， 再来，jason teoh, 再来,calvin chong…”。 真的是“炸到”，哈哈！

我刚去赖的房间“kap kap" 两下，那个小姐原来睡着了…她应该好累吧，刚才还拿着报纸进房间看的..哈(其实今早也是被我叫醒来去吃早餐的，哈！)

其实一小时前 before 打拳课，我们还一起 join Step 101 class(脚步轻松跳舞课), 我乱乱来，脚步错完…跳到脚都痛！可是也好，出了一身汗。

去了steam sauna，冲凉了，接下来就去看戏。 不知为何，做完GYM 就想吃 MacD，每次都是，我想，应该是‘上瘾’吧…我知道不好，正在慢慢隔离MACD！看戏前就买了 MacD进戏院吃。Kenny wong joined 我们看戏，唉！选错戏啦！早知道看 “葫芦里的秘密”。 我们昨天看 Resident Evils, 真是很血腥，有点恐怖又噩心！唉，本小姐不喜欢看那种吓人的戏！不过我有Technics的，脸对着银幕，一时时紧张的部分，就闭上眼睛(假假看)，不然啊，就一直玩sms，洗电话里的 messages，或是看来看去。那个阿赖就惨咯，一直“啊！”，“啊，Canny Har 啊！我很怕”。 Kenny Wong 更坏，拼命乘机吓阿赖，无端端又“Pong！”， “hoh！”， 赖就一直喊。好笑。戏终于都完了。

赖：Canny har, 这部戏一点都不好看！！！怕死我了，我好想呕..你怕吗？

Canny: Emm ok ok 啊，不会怕，不讨厌这部戏，女主角蛮美的..

赖：哇，你不怕..厉害..

(哈哈，本小姐假装不怕啦！！)

赖有个怪癖，她走路时喜欢撞人！她比较有..肉，也比较..有力(希望赖没读我的blog), 所以撞我时，我很自然的“弹”去旁边一步半！弹还无所谓，我手部会感觉到痛咧，ok, 我 try to 走旁边一点，哪知道她还是会撞。啊，我终于忍不住了..

Canny: 赖啊，做么你会撞人的..? 痛咧，你走好来..
赖： 哈，我姐姐每次都被我撞的啦..
Canny: =_=" " "

其实还有个小秘密，她走走两下，会突然牵着我的手，又会把头靠来我的肩膀，(其实是她的习惯)，我超不好意思咧，几怕别人误会我们是“ LES”!

哈， overall, yesterday was a fruitful day for me.. and today, its gonna be a fruitful day,too!

..:: Canz ::..

I was chatting with Jonathan just now.. He became more and more mature. I remembered the last time I was the one who gave him suggestions and advices. Now, he is the one who enlightened my spirit through the conversation. The way he speaks impressed me. It was a fruitful conversation. Thank you, John. You know, I am a blessed child too because I have u as my friend

I am so blessed today.. spiritually blessed..

Let Him loves me and enjoy His presence.. linger in His presence..

Thank you, John! Thank you Daddy in Heaven!

..:: canz ::..

I have been chasing after TVB series last night and stayed up til 3am this morning. Yea get to bed and tried to sleep but cant fall asleep, I guess the sleeping time is passed.. then keep thinking on the bed and finally I fell asleep automatically til this morning 8am..  wow in the few hours of sleep, I gained something..

I have got one sweet dream.. erm.. its very funny.. the dream is short but I like it.. I dreamed of a person…is a she.. is a student from apiit..is a chinese.. In the dream, it was the first time I chit chat with her…I forgot why I chit chat with her.. then keep talking and talking. The both of us talked happily, like a good friend even though its just the first time we talking to one another. (btw, we always smile at each other when we see each other in college,hi-bye friend a.k.a college mate). Then, I got up from the dream..its 8am. Time to wash up and prepare to go to college. After I brushed my teeth, washed my face, I saw two of my eyes were sooo red, then I think of my classmate, his eyes always red because he lack of sleep. I scare(coz its it looks so unhealthy and ugly)..then I quickly got back to bed and let my eyes rest a while… haha!

Then, I fell asleep again.. I got another dream again… this time I  dreamed of my previous church members.. yee.. I remembered Pr Lois, Zoel only and it was not a bad dream..hehe..then awaked by my ringtone..received one message ..

My friend texted me.. saying that the two classes had been cancelled this morning. Hoho.. luckily I accidentally ‘absent’ haha!

These two dreams have enlightened my day because it has been a long long time ago since I have a good/happy dream

Gotta prepare for the next noon class ciaozz

..:: Canz ::..

要记得
我们的故事真难忘
有太多的回忆和希望
不管它有多疯狂
我愿意一生收藏
我们的故事不能忘
太多的情节要发展
不要放弃
因为有一天缘分会继续

Why the intense emotional moment falls at the night most of the time? Well, I dont know but I guess today is the emotional night for me

There was a celebration for Lantern Festival and China National Day today in APIIT. I went to the 3rd floor, had a glimpse of the performance. Alone again but enjoying coz hardly heard Chinese song in APIIT. I had an early lunch with Sandeep and his gf, had an awkward feeling everytime when I am in the midst of couples :p  I was quite sleepy today.. the first class was OK but the second class(PT class again) I fell extremely sleepy..there was a BIG desire to sleep on the table..really sleepy..no joke.. my eyes got so red coz I keep gosok my eyes..gosh.. bengkak d..!! I also got a big temptation to go back home and sleep on my comfortable bed during the 2hours and 45 mins break…eventually, I did not go back. I went to the syndicate room and watched TVB series.. :->

Midvalley Jusco delivered my study table to me at around 9pm just nw..( btw, they promised to deliver around 1-5pm). That fella keep missed call me and asked me to call him back to show him direction to come Bukit Jalil =_=""" (really zha dao)

It was the first time I fixed it by myself.. obviously, I was failed to be a ‘carpenter". I dont have enough strength to spin the lil thingy by using screw driver… at first I thought I need a big screw driver, so I went out and try looking for neighbours to see whether can I borrow screw driver from them. Guess what, all the way from my corner to the end of the corner, it was so quiet.. no tv sounds, all doors were closed tightly. Its only 10 something ya. Okie fine. I went down to Guard House and tried to ask the guards for screw driver but they dont have. All the way from my apartment to guard house, there was only 1 or 2 persons passed by. I guess I can hear the mosquito sound. I called my so called ‘FRIENDS’ who are staying in C block, tried to ask them for screw driver, but they all weren’t at home. What a COINCIDENT! I was so dissapointed and suddenly got so upset..I only need a screw driver.(they asked me to fix it tomorrow.But u know me,impatient type..I cant wait! I want it to be done by today itself!) To b honest,I dont like BUKIT JALIL!:-(  Those times in Alpha, even 12am still got lotsa ppl walking around.. the apartments were so noisy sometime, many doors were opened during day/night time. I’ve got lotsa friends there..say hi everywhere.. hawker aunty uncle also know me.. if I want a screw driver, I can get it easily. If I need help in fixing the table, my good bro n sis or friends will come n help.. if i am hungry, sure got ppl accompany me go makan either breakfast,lunch,dinner or supper. Although here a bit ‘high class’, nice house, nice room, nice environment.. but i dont really enjoy it..I find the environment here is so serious.. so quiet..and…so LONELY.. what I miss the most is the relationship and the friendship there.. I miss my friends. I am missing them right now. I need a HUG! Friends! Today is mooncake festival, I stil remembered for the past 2 yrs we used to celebrate at the playground and I played the guitar, we sang songs together by lighting the candles and lantern.. and play with kids also.. and today, I was here alone without any MOONCAKE also! How sad! Sobs..

I feel like escaping… I dont know where.. but i have such feeling..  I dont like the feeling…bt somehow.. it just exists..

Tomorrow will be another hectic day for me..(assignments, tests and unpacking).. guess I was too tired..thats why got so emotional today.. I must be awake mentally.. stop being emotional.. Tomorrow will be a great day again(I hope) and of course..busy and tired day as well… Canny, smile!

..::Canz::.. 4am

It seems like many things weren’t go so well today. In fact, kind of a bad day for my friends and me.

Last night I sekali gus(at one time) done all the 3 proposals till 5am and submit it today. Obviously, I missed the first 830am class. Haha! Ok! Thats fine… I got up at 9 something and prepared myself to go college and I’ve got enough strength and in fact, kinda energetic today.

We supposed to pay one month deposit to the landlord today as to ‘book’ the house. Ok. RM1350. 7pm have to meet the landlord. One of my ‘future housemate’ encountered some problems..her dad cant deposit the money for her today.. She supposed to pay RM300 or more for that small room, but because of some financial problem, me and the other 2 housemates has decided to lend her extra hands by contributing more money as to increase our rental and decrease her rental. So, her rental become RM270 for the FULLY-FURNISHED room. The 3 of us gotta pay RM360 for our respective rooms. OK, Thats fine, coz we wanna help each other and live happily and peacefully. Hmm then she told me that she cant pay RM270 today as the father didnt have time to deposit the money today, but only will make it tomorrow. Now we’re lacking of RM270. She keep telling me about the financial problem.. . . Yes I understand.. but.. i dont know how can I help.. we’ve already be the kind person by increasing our rental in order to let her join us for the new, clean, tidy fully furnished house. To be frank, I kind of losing confident on some of the promises because kena FFK last minuteslast time. I really hope things will go on smoothly. Well, still, i promised her that I will help her to settle..comforted her as she is kinda upset too.

While driving to Carrefour to withdraw money, its 5pm, classes have over.. the 3 of them chit chatting in the car.. and I was in a deep thought.. hoping that everything will go smoothly..unlike the last time, at first decided to take the house, but suddenly one girl last minute said she cant join us and we told the landlord that we cant take the house one hour before the exact time we suppose to meet each other. This causes the 3 of us so dissapointed and really SHOCK! We keep on finding one more person to join .. but no one.. eventually, i succeeded to persuade ‘her’ to join.. but she is .. really having some financial problem..ok well, she said maybe she wana take the medium and share with another girl, so maybe one month her rental is RM180-RM200 only.. ok..then i told her that she can ask her friend as she wishes but one fully furnished room for RM270 is really CHEAP! Too bad she told me she cant sleep alone. Ok, Yes, continue my story.. all these were in my mind, i was thinking how to settle the RM270 for her.. how to talk to the landlord and etc. . it was a red light. . . yes.. after a few minutes, there’s green light and suddenly without realizing , "PANG!"..a motor-rider was turning to the right hand side and i was going straight road..ya, i was in the wrong land.. the rider nearly fall down (but he never fell) and he stopped at the road side..i looked at him from my side mirror and suddenly awaked.. i was really in a deep thought!(too much of thinking) Haih.. he raised his hand up and showed the gesture of ‘apalah!".. something like that, ..i dont know what should I do or hw to respond to him..he is riding motor, i thought he is suppose to go from the right hand side of me if he wants to turn to the right side? Ok, well, beside me there was cars..behind me there was also cars.. i gotta go straight..and I….didnt stop… i am wondering how if the guy jot down my car plate number and report to the police? What will happen? I hope nothing will happen! Ya, its really true that we cant think of anything but to concentrate while driving.. Yes, I am still calm .. and we reached Carrefour safely…

Guess what.. while withdrawing, one of my housemate’s card being telan by the ATM Machine.. neither can she take the money nor the card. what a sad case..she looked soooo sad.. i was thinking of my own problem also(deposits, the ‘accident’).. but I just gotta pretend like nothing and help her to solve her problem.. yes, i used my own phone to call the Maybank service center..and I promised her tht I will accompany her to Sri Petaling Maybank tomrrow during my break time to help her to settle all these…keep comforting her. Then keep saying some funny things to cheer her up…yea she smiles..and suddenly, she said ‘Canny, I am really grateful. Thank you. Thank God for sending u to me. You’re like an angel to me’. It was kinda surprising and I smiled at her. I THANK God for her also la. Hehe! Btw, that time I was a bit dissapointed also because i thought for sure we dont have enough money to pay to the landlord..such thing happen unxpectedly! BUT, praise God, nothing is impossible!There is always a rainbow after the stormy day. We’ve got one rich housemate in our midst.. she offered to pay the remaining amount first and withdrew the money again so that we can pay off the deposit. Thank God.

Finally, we paid. BUT… sigh!! The agent wanted us to pay RM280 for stamping fees, RM700 for utilities fee, another one month deposit and that particular month’s rental..so all together we’ve gotta settle the RM3680 balance after 11 days. tHATS FINE..because its common for people to pay 2 months deposit, half month of utilities fee and one month rental. Bur I really dont know why we have to pay for the tenancy agreement fee!! They are the one who rented the house for us, arent they suppose to pay for the tenancy agreement fee? They gv us excuse like the landlord already pay for the maintainence fee, so they wont pay for the fee. Come on!! We are only STUDENTS!! —**Speechless**–Ok! FINE!!!!!!! One lame thing is, he showed us the electric bill, ask us to pay RM315 because the previous tenant had pre-paid this amount… so, we suddenly gotta pay for the prepaid electric bill…. OMG!!!!!!!! Well, I am ok with it cz my dad is an understanding and easy going person. BUT i really dont know how is ’she’ gona pay for it on the next 11 days. APIIT only can pay bec the deposit after THREE weeks starts from the date we return key. ‘She’ texted me just now… saying that she is stressful…and she feels like crying because her father started to feel suspicious…i was like.. =_=""" OMG! How can the father doubted on his own daughter? Ok fine! Actually one of the reason her father didnt want to deposit the money to her because she hasnt view the house.. Ok fine, during my break time, i went to Vista again to accompany her see the house and i broke my appointment with group assignment mates. Now she has already seen the house and quite like it, the father said tomorrow only deposit the money for her. After meeting the landlord, got so much of hassel things, the father also doubted whether what she said is true or not.. she felt so helpless and upset.. i truly understand her feeling.. that time when she texted me, I was in the cinema watching my midnight show.thats why u can see me still awake at this time now..hmm just came bec not long ago from Midvalley.. I feel such a sympathy towards her.. and suddenly I have a feeling that I am quite blessed actually..I thank God for giving me such a good father and family. . . really love my family soooo much!

I wanting to help people so much.. but somehow its beyond my own ability..what can I do? I will just pray..I am serious.. I WILL pray that things will go on fine..I really scare tomorrow she wil said things like "sorry, my father prefer me to stay under APIIT’s accommodation".. then i think i wil go to bang the wall! haha! Well, nothing is impossible! All I need to do is just pray and ask favours from God.

Pray for her……..   @_@